So many changes we have lived through together - some happy, some not. Many great ideas that weren't really that great - all those mercurial things you do in your 20's (that I did in my 20's...)she was there for. And she was always one of the best things about my life.
Last night we had a party to celebrate her 25 years on the planet. I put everything into it. We had vegetarian chili and artesian bread that I made myself and home made french bread and artichoke dip and hummus - all made by me. The floors were washed and the rooms tidied. And I roasted squash and cooked beets and made 2 rebar chocolate cakes (amazing! Turned out the best I have ever done!)I worked all day starting at 4am. And as I worked, I thought about her and what I would like to say at this 1/4 of a Century celebration. People started arriving. It was loud. We visited and ate and worked together. And by the time we were singing and eating cake, I was far too exhausted to say any of the things I had thought of. So here it is:
To my beautiful, talented daughter who has graced my life with love and laughter and friendship - more than I ever hoped for and more than I deserve. To you, Eryn. Who can find the words to describe all that a daughter is - all that you have been to me. Who can find the words to describe the amazing unfoldment I have been honoured to witness as your mother? A beautiful, creative, musical soul, a young woman who knows her own mind. Someone who is not afraid to speak up. A determined, courageous, brave person who I am so inexpressibly grateful to know. Here's to you, Eryn. I love you!